some life sign

I was supposed to officially start working on 1st/2nd of may, but sadly, despite the daycare forms saying that they can react to urgent need for daycare in 2 weeks, I did not get any response yet (besides them having gotten the mail). So I’m feeling kind of in a limbo….anxious, because I’m not knowing at what point I will be able to work fulltime on my “projects”….also my toddler goes through a phase of really bad sleeping again, so I’m pretty much tired and anxious all day and that is really hard to deal with.
Despite all that, I managed to do a few things…like I continued working on my business card, which I had finally an idea for on what kind of motive I would want and working on some more animal concepts and a completely not relevant animation for a loading screen, as well as doing a lot of organisatory stuff, planning out which game features are core of Critters, what I need to work on first, what things are part of the polish process and should be ignored for now, what resources I can use etc.

Things are moving, but at a much slower pace than I hoped :/
Also, since it’s my first time being mom and also not so familiar with finnish custom regarding daycare over summer, I found out, that I likely have to take a “forced” break from game development in the middle of summer, because even, if I get a daycare spot (hopefully soon), they won’t be open for around a month in summer :/

And….*sighs* in general, I wished I could be more optimistic, but I’m highly stressed and having also some other more personal problems to deal with….I hope I can soon see some progress in terms of daycare….otherwise I need to find a way to make it work without, which….well…I’m trying to anyway, but it’s hard and I know I can’t keep this up for too long without running into risk of falling into a deep hole …. while I know I can get out of such stuff, it’s never easy and never fun.

I’m just gonna leave some more graphical stuff around, so it’s not entirely a negative post…:

Argh my heart XD positive news!

I got the grant I was applying for 😀 which means for about 6 months I don’t need to worry too much about my financial situation 🙂
….I’m so glad!

oh…and I’m gonna leave this here hehe:

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the map is still a work in progress, obviously and the creature concepts are mostly a mixture of learning how to draw different animals and recognize their distinctive shapes and some ideas I had of animals that could roam the world of Critters… 😮

Done! o.o

ahhhhh….I’m so tired now….but I got through the ludum dare and I actually had quite alot of fun doing so…and yet another good experience, that it doesn’t always have to be stressful and “perfect”.
It’s actually kinda funny…I think…in a way this game could be perceived as quite gross XD Color wise…and content wise…>.>
But I’m glad I took the time for it, considering I learned alot about animating and importing into unity, a thing I was dreading to do for a long time o.o

https://ldjam.com/events/ludum-dare/38/wigglefish

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LD 38 cause I afterall do participate XD

I was not sure if I should, was feeling anxious about it and wondering if I will have the time or if I want to spend time on it, considering I could also spend the time to work on some stuff for my very soon starting business >.< But it’s not like I haven’t worked on it fo months already….>.>……<.<….

And LD can be a lot of fun 😀 I kind of made a promise to myself, in order to not have it add any unnecessary stress to my current life situation, I will just try to take it as relaxed as possible…sleeping well, eating well, in general taking breaks and not worrying about any kind of score etc.
But it’s easier said than done 😀 I will try my best hehe.
Also…I like my game idea, practically I want to make a game out of the little silverfish I have in my own bathroom lol. I honestly find them cute, so I will see if it turns out to be another cute animal survival game rofl…..cause I seem to have an obsession with that…why not go for it XD

Company registration and new Banner

I’m trying to keep working on my games/business etc. every day a little bit…..while it got better and I’m much less feeling like “I wouldn’t do enough”…sometimes it’s still a bit hard, when it feels like my progress is like old chewing gum.

For a long time, I wanted a new Header for my blog and with the business social media sites, I thought I could maybe combine the needs and make one banner for all sites to use.
(btw. current blog banner up there was more or less meant to be temporary anyway, more refined than the old one, but I’m aware it’s not the most exciting to look at and it barely represents what I’m trying to go for in the future with my games etc. especially dragonlands)
Well…first I felt like I would have to start something new, when I noticed a file I had forgotten about on my harddrive, which is a banner I started a while ago, but never completed, because it was just a lot of work….and apparently it still is XD
I decided to continue it, but hell….there are a lot of weaknesses of mine involved in it…>.< so it takes longer than usual to draw it and in ideal case I want it to come close to how I want dragonlands to be stylistic as much as possible. Which means I can’t stay with the more familiar “make outlines around everything”
Additionally, since I started that one, I have learned a few more things about perspective, landscapes and color schemes……o.o
So….I wrote a ton of notes and corrections and are atm more busy refining it to a state i can use it, also in higher resolution than I would need, and that is pretty boring XD because the progress is barely visible for me atm o.o

>.< But I know, if I just stick with it, it will be good….so….to not hold it back any longer:

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Also…I did the application to register my business 😀 …it’s getting real o.o

 

Also pondering currently about it, if I should participate in Ludum Dare….the decision is pretty much on “yes”, but I think I’m gonna take it easy this time…go with the 3 days instead of 48 hours and doing a less ambitious project and being open to stop at any moment….because I think things will get quite stressful soon.

and on with the concepts :D

Since I promised myself to even post some of the smaller less impressive steps, here some more I worked on the past few days that i thought might be interesting to see 🙂 I did a lot of research and looking for references, about landscapes, plants, trees and generally art styles that would fit with what I have in mind. One of my inspirations seems to be Studio ghibli, in general a lot of animes in terms of backgrounds etc. and artists like Bill Perkins (I never heard of that name before, but knowing he worked on some of my favorite animation movies makes me happy to know his name now :D)
Well….I have no idea if I will be able to pull off what i have in mind, but I sure hope so and if I do it will look beautiful and that alone might be enough to gain some interest 🙂
So……hello ambitions 😀 nice to see you going nuts again XD yeah…it’s not a big endeavor at all to want to make a 3D game appear like some of the most beautiful backgrounds I have seen in my life …… *sobs a little bit*

flora_temperate_concept_flowersandcolorsflora_temperate_concept_trees_bushes_flowersetc
But I’m so excited about learning and figuring out what works together and how to make the different biomes stand out all enhanced through shapes and colors and such 😀
Currently, it seems the temperate biome is actually the most difficult one, because it has no “distinct” own color or shapes, but rather it’s like a multitude of shapes and colors, slightly leaning towards roundishness and simplicity. In a way, I’m meaning to have it the sort of airiness that kids drawings have 🙂

oh also….I had an Interview for a grant today and I might be able to slightly already think that I might be positively getting it 🙂 but i don’t wanna draw it too big yet, because the decision will come over the next 2 weeks…I’m just having sort of a mini celebration on my own 😀 also because I’m officially allowed to register my company now yay 😀

need to do some concept art

If I want to be able to define a consistent style for my game, i guess I need to do some concept art for myself, something that captures and shows the feelings and atmosphere I want to create for the different Biomes in “Critters”.
I didn’t want to be bogged down, by the style at first, so I simple tried to sketch in the colors i want to have for the first “temperate” biome, which is supposed to be the first one I’m gonna create, cause that’s where the player should start to play. The “easy” zone, where resources are just enough to keep you alive without much effort, but the zone should kinda drive players to seek for better places 🙂
Also by trying to hint towards other places, since I don’t want the world to be open but not too big I can actually play with it, that I can hint at other zones in the distance.
So in this rather “traditional” looking concept, I was trying to hint at the cold area in the distance.
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I’m working now on making it a lot more stylized and maybe finding ways to lead the eye a lot more, because atm it just feels like a large wavy open area, without real focuspoint, besides the tree in the foreground, but I’m quite happy with the colors.
I wanted something that is feeling “mediate” an area that is neither cold nor warm, so i used mostly neutral colors and every other color like blues and such are very desaturated. I also wanted to go with a slight colder touch towards the mountains and a more warm feeling towards the viewer by adding sunlight grazing the fields and flowers blooming everywhere.
Hopefully i can evoke the emotion of feeling safe and “soft” and comforting…in a way 🙂