Eventful week, in a sense ;)

I feel this week was indeed quite full of things. I started off by meeting someone to get evaluated, if I could maybe get an extension for the grant I have been working with the past 5 months and I hope it goes through, but it for sure makes and made me very nervous, because I have no idea how to evaluate my work and how others might see it and what exactly would be even “good” criteria to getting that extension of the grant through and on monday I’m gonna have a meeting about that again ๐Ÿ˜ฎ .

I know that I’m trying my best to make things work somehow, which is why I try my hardest currently to get the Steam Store page done and then evaluated and hopefully approved, so I can put it up on steam as “coming soon” and then hopefully! at 31st of October I would release my game into Early Access on Steam.

Honestly, I would have liked to wait with that for a bit longer, but my grant is running out at the end of October, I had struggles to deal with, that I really didn’t expect, some that could have been avoidable, but were due to my inexperience on how to work and stand up for myself. It all has drawn everything out and not only did I not feel good about it, I sort of bashed myself for it.
I try not do, but sometimes it’s hard when I think “I could have done better” even if that’s not true, since I really try my best to research and figure out things the best I can…..honestly…who knows what more could have gone wrong, if I wouldn’t be like that ๐Ÿ˜‰
hah….I sidetracked a little bit.

Soooo….I made a bit of a deal with myself, to crunch through work until end of the month (trying to not overdo it though). That includes, setting up steam store page, making materials ready for promotion(videos, art etc.), adjusting my plans, getting my game into a relatively stable and feature complete state. I don’t know honestly, if I will get all the features in, especially the more complex ones, like save functionality….not even sure if I should do it, since I don’t know how to do that yet and I expect it to be quite a lot of work ๐Ÿ™‚

Also…what the hell! I need to make a trailer for my game, from game footage 2 weeks away from the launch o.o and I have never done Video editing like that XD sure I edited some Videos while I studied, but I think I don’t really have a clue ๐Ÿ˜› So that will be a first timer and I hope it’s at least gonna turn out moderate lol……
I really feel like graphically my game isn’t ready for such exposure of it’s graphics…>.< buuuuut that’s the version that is gonna come on steam…and if there are any extras, in case I manage to develop some more when the store page is up, I guess I can just update everything as needed ๐Ÿ™‚ Maybe I can make the Video relatively “neutral” as in, it shows current game, shows what’s in it…..hmmm I will see what the results will be o.o
Also I wonder how my german accent would sound like if I would do a voiceover/talk ….could I pull off some sort of scientist explaining the life of critters like a documentation? XD

oh….and there are images to share ๐Ÿ˜€ I finished my promo picture, which btw. took much longer than I wanted it to…with occasional: sitting on my pc without anything happening to it for weeks….>.>
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I’m honestly very proud of it ๐Ÿ˜€ only thing I don’t like, is that for some reason I chose this really weird format and never checked on what I actually needed rofl….which kinda bit me, when I tried to use this image on the steam store-page stuff o.o

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hihihi first preview of my steam store page :3 I would be lying, if I would say that this wouldn’t make me somewhat excited ๐Ÿ˜€

oh and then I also updated all my EmberSparkz pages with my new image and even started work on a Critters own Sub Webpage on my main domain ๐Ÿ˜€
http://www.embersparkz.com/critters.html

what’s not so visible, is that I made all the “capsules” or images necessary for steam ready and I also created a unique Logo for Critters ๐Ÿ˜‰
And just yesterday I have implemented food and “dead bodies” decay to the game, as well as fruits regrowing on bushes ๐Ÿ˜€

so yeah….quite lot’s of stuff that happened this week ๐Ÿ˜€

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So much! So few time *sighs*

I think it’s about time I start prioritizing the actual game development. I have put much more time in trying to do business related things, than developing and it honestly has annoyed me quite alot. Not to mention, that I also had some personal issues “to deal with” again and those things just keep eating time, if I want to or not….and then on top of that I might have also felt quite depressed about not feeling like I’m progressing properly and feeling as if I ruined everything by not being active enough on social media etc.
Last 2 weeks were stressful to say the least…..
But I’m slowly crawling back out of that hole again and I was even pondering, if I get the time and to gather some experience with making Videos, if I should make a stream of me working on something.
I have no idea how that would go, cause I’m actually a quite shy person and not thinking that I’m very photogenic OR videogenic XD for that matter…..but I am curious about at least giving it a try.
(If someone wants to see it, please tell me so XD cause that could make a difference in how courageous I feel about it ๐Ÿ˜‰ )
On a good note: I got to continue work on the final promo picture for Critters and my discord is still alive ๐Ÿ˜› even though it’s not really “busy” in there XD. Also I might have found a solution for my grass bending/visibility problem with my cubs and have already implemented a first version of it.

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sorry, I’m a bit overwhelmed :O

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below is the draft of what I actually wanted to publish :O – past 3 days, because I was just so desperately wanting to actually do game development that I got a lot done ingame, but not so much in documenting it (will add it for next week), so all I can give right now are the notes i made through the week and this image of me getting overwhelmed by Critters ๐Ÿ™‚
monday:

  • first part of the day was trying to figure out what i need to do for a grant extension application
  • made applications for grant payout
  • then spend rest of the day waiting, for my daughter to be seen by a doc, cause she was coughing for 2 weeks(it was awful btw. that day was just horrible, mostly about the “having to wait for hours for no apparent reason and having to carry consequences for others making mistakes…”)

tuesday: iam too sick to work and my daughter was home with me, also somewhat sick, but luckily she got a lot better

wednesday: husband is out of the house whole day and I’m needing to take care of everything at home alone, luckily i could get her to daycare, but i’m still sick, not feeling very well and I’m anxious of the work I have to do, because it has to do with finances, which I’m not very comfortable with….

A weeks busy business :D

Monday: got my ID, drove bus first time in 3 years in new country, got bus card, felt good

Tuesday: worked on camera controls and character movement, made new game icon, replaced splashscreen with unfinished promo picture, added logo as splashscreen

Wednesday: bank account made,ย register officially as creator on steam

Thursday: separated movement controls from camera controls

Friday: steamworks application went through and I was an emotional wreck for some time due to overwhelming feelings of “OMG I’m officially registered with my company on steam now! OMG ahhhhhhhh!”

Hah okay, so actually that list above was just meant as a reminder for myself what I would write about at the end of the week, but tbh I found it so entertaining to read it summarized like that, that I decided to just keep it ๐Ÿ™‚ Also to give an idea how I’m wanting/had planned to write blog posts, to be able to know what to write about, since I might sometimes forget what exactly happened and this is a good way of reminding myself ๐Ÿ˜€
As you can see, it was a quite eventful week for me and a lot of things, that are not directly “game development”, but had to be done as a business and to be able to release games on steam O.o *tries not to hyperventilate*.
Also for anyone interested: I will try to aim for releasing an Early Access version of my game around mid October, but I don’t have an exact date yet, since there is so much to do and I’m already feeling slightly overwhelmed (and now that I have seen what Steam needs from me for the store page and other “little” things that I took for granted on steam games (lol) I was made aware that I might have to work a lot…. ;_;

It’s okay….I can do it….I want to do that, it was my wish to get where I am now and I will accept that I have to do those things, if I want to see this company and my dreams going anywhere XD just breathe…..slowly and steadily and make it work! ๐Ÿ˜€

Sorry for not really having any visuals this time ๐Ÿ™‚ I hope I have something for next week. I will concentrate more on finishing my games banner and wrapping up the controls for now and likely will work on animations and such, probably should also add at least some sort of sounds. Anything graphical would be great to add atm I think, to be able to create some footage/screenshots for the steam storepage. Which also means I want to work on some feedback systems aswell since they are inevitably connected to some visual elements. As example I already have particle effects for overheating and poisoned, but I never implemented the mechanics for it, which shouldn’t be that hard, since it’s practically just a variation to the hunger and temperature system ๐Ÿ™‚

Oh right I forgot, there is this ๐Ÿ˜€
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I don’t like stress

Yeah I really don’t. It makes me grumpy and adding to that “too few sleep” I’m having struggles to keep myself motivated to work on stuff and if I’m choosing the wrong tasks to work on, I might end up even more frustrated, because it’s not working the way I want right away…..not to mention slightly feeling judged for not always working on the core of the game ;_;
The last week was very mixed. Monday and Tuesday I spent time on working through bills (meh) and getting a table at “Vaasa Game Days” :O ย (I’m at spot I6 btw. ๐Ÿ™‚ )
which is 22nd – 23rd November this year and I think it’s likely a good deadline for getting an almost finished game to show ….but….I actually wanted to release an EA version end of september/beginning of october and now I’m not so certain anymore that it will work out, because I still need to get my new ID to be able to make a bank account for my company to then be able to register my game on steam….since one needs to wait 30 days after registration before I can upload a game *sighs* I didn’t think it would be a problem, because I had ordered the new ID end of june/beginning july I think, but I did not get the message that i could go and get it….so months passed and at some point I find out they didn’t send me a message….not sure if i get my number wrong afterall but MEH….so now it’s stressful to think about going there, because it already took so long and I don’t like such things happening…>.<
Tiiiiimeeeee give me more time dang it!
I released an updated version of my demo yesterday, but i didn’t really want to, considering I had just implemented some new camera controls and they were not in a satisfactory state :/ but what’s done is done…I had to do changes afteral, cause the camera controls were interfering with character physics, making it slide weirdly and jitter when not pressing any keys :/
I will figure it out eventually but it’s quite frustrating that sometimes progress can be so slow -.-

Also I noticed that with tall grass and animals, there is a problem….visibility…so now I’m trying to figure out a few things on how to solve that problem, cause I really don’t want to give up beautiful high grass, because I think it’s so so important for a natural landscape that was never touched by humans and I’m thinking about a mixture of using shaders to show cubs as “shadows” in the grass, while grass is wiggling a little bit and later on grass piece particles flying up when cubs are running through it ๐Ÿ™‚
Additionally, making sure that grass has lots of spots with shorter height, where cubs are visible and spots for large rocks and tree stumps, to be able to get a vantage point, like cats do in real life ๐Ÿ™‚

Also I played around with post processing effects and changed the game to linear space, because I think in longterm it might be wise to use that, graphically. But I have to say that some exposure in the snow as example is too extreme atm.

https://farelle.itch.io/critters-cute-cubs-in-a-cruel-world

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If you ever want to be a game dev with a company…

…be prepared that you won’t be able to work on your game all the time.
There are days when you have to nurture and take care of your companies needs, those are things like sending receipts to your accountant, talk and socialize with people to make new contacts and to become more visible, to support those that follow you, to get new followers (I try to tell one person a day about my game and even if it doesn’t always happen, I keep it always in the back of my mind, that one person a day is managable for me and that it doesn’t matter if I gain a fan or follower through it, all that matters is, that I talk about it, because you never know whom you might tell about it who then starts spreading it like wildfire or at the very least you can work your way through “becoming known” by plain persistence, it matters a lot).
Then there are things like marketing, paying bills, making content that you can post on social media, learning and organizing your workflow, making plans for events, maybe even buying a new tool. There are lots of things that will come up when having a company, things that are important for the company to exist and sustain and when working alone, it’s you who has to wear all those shoes.
I do and sometimes it’s frustrating to me, because I want to work on my game, but there are situations when it’s not reasonable to work on it.
I know this blog entry is probably not the most interesting, but I think it has to be said, since we usually only get that image from everywhere, that game devs, especially indie’s are those people who work from a basement, shut off from light and life and all they do is coding and deving away at their game.
While there are probably cases where that’s somewhat true, we all need to eat and sleep, drink and *coughs* shit XD and occasionally leave our house to get groceries or fulfill any other kind of duties that are part of our lifes.

Demo update and recap of last week

I had set up a deadline for myself to release the demo, no matter what, to gain some experience in how I handle my own deadlines and also how it would feel to know that there might be issues with it. To be able to go through the whole process to “release” the game. Especially one that I have had spend more time on than a weekend (ludum dare games).
And as expected, it was feeling a bit different. On one side it was more relaxed, because I knew that I am the one in control of when it would be published on itch.io unlike the ludum dare events, where it was always very anxious process in the last hour for submitting and because there was no way to push the deadline even if I had good reasons (like rl interfering or not feeling well etc.)
On the other hand, it was feeling weird to release a game I had spend more time on, but it actually was more buggy/laggy etc. than the ludum dare version, which makes sense, because it has more content, but it DOES make me think, that keeping a game from having any game breaking bugs is maybe more work than I would have thought.
Even now that I have updated last version (btw. with patch notes and announcement to get a feeling for that as well) to fix some major bugs and issues, it introduced new bugs due to changes I did that were not bug related XD
A bit frustrating, but also a bit amusing I admit.
Practically in the newest version, cubs don’t seem to die from starvation for some reason or at least not past first generation. Also the tornado is not pulling anything up….might have changed it’s pulling power or messed up a statement …whatever it was, it’s annoying when such things happen XD and I only noticed it when I presented my demo at a local IGDA event XD best timing for something to not work hehe.

Oh well, but the good thing is, that I’m getting more experience with things now ๐Ÿ™‚ also interacting with players in regards to feedback on how they like it (or don’t like it) and to get bug reports and dealing with those bug reports. While I got a glimpse into that from my ludum dare participations, it was far less extensive and to be fair, it also mattered less, since ludum dare games are not made for others necessarily ๐Ÿ™‚ it’s more like a place I can go, test my skills, improve my skills, test out ideas and have fun ๐Ÿ˜€ and make something small and without any commitment into having a fully polished and finished product.
It’s different with Critters now though, this is a longer term project and I have the goal to finish it up for release on steam towards end of the year or beginning of next year, ideally I would like to try early access before that, but I know of the possible risks for that, especially depending on how far my game is at the point of EA.
Currently I don’t think my game should be put up on steam for it’s current state, but I’m hoping that end of next month, I might have a version that is more suitable for it ๐Ÿ™‚
But that’s honestly, very optimistic thinking, because there is really a lot to do.

btw. here is the link to newest version of my demo ๐Ÿ˜‰
https://farelle.itch.io/critters-cute-cubs-in-a-cruel-world

my plan is to use itch.io, maybe also gamejolt, to get some first feedback for it and then, when I feel it’s ready I go to steam. When everything goes well and I can say that the game has a sort of “finished” state I’m going to include GOG and other portals as well.
Honestly I’m a bit afraid of publishing on steam, depending on how much traction I would get, I’m afraid of negative and especially unfair critique, but I hope I can handle it. So far negative criticism, was at least not making me want to stop game development. It just made me wonder, what it is they see and if there is any way for me to help them see my game in the right light, but that I might not be able to change everyone’s perspective on it and just have to move on.

btw. those were some very efficient and productive 2 weeks ๐Ÿ˜€ I actually overworked myself somewhat to get the demo out, but I’m happy with it *pushes doubts and self critique in a bottle to be opened later*